my sickness

Its been a while scence ive updated. Im alive!

Ive been haven issues w my stomach again,,and going.back on a gluten free diet again,
I know they say i have crones instead of celica. .. but hay if it helps the pain that is what matter.
I wish i could find a dr who cares..,
Let alone insurance i can afford.
Atm im.detoxing my body from all meds. Its really a pain...and makes me moody also.

I feel like i have tons of health issues and.no answers forthem.
I hate waking up daily and not feeling well.

And these issues have been going on my whole life.


From 6 yrs old they told my mom its this stomach flu or this one...
After many drs it was she has an ulcer.
I couldnt gain weight well tell i was 13.
Hell i was wearing 3 t clothes in first grade.

I have been tested positive for hp bacteria in my stomach 4 times.

When igot preg my body really stop processong food. And then they said i had celica diease...
I gained alot of weight.
After my son ihad issues to lose.
But in 2012 things got worse... the meds, the test, the hospital.
I gained 60 lbs...
Of which im still struggling tolose.
And even.w work outs and eattong right i havent been able to.
They also changed it to.i have crones and.ibs.
Sighs.. sighs...
Im just tired of it!

If.nothing else maybe one day i willheal myself. Ol

Beyound that... i have scoliosis in my back,..and those bones are breaking down.. as we found out when i was 16.

And at 15 i started haven. Seziors.
I have beenflowen to st louis childerens hospital at 17 for a passmaker over my seziors. But luckly didnt have to get one.
My last hospital vist stay was dec 2011 for 3 days due to 2 seziors and a heart rate of 156 that theu still couldntget down after 7 bags of iv fluids.

Ive also have taken antidepressent scence o was 14 due to family genes.

I always feel crazy wheno have to explain.why idont feel well to anyone.
And even drs... bc i just feel crazy any.more.

Can i just feel well ?!!?

This just proves you cant judge a book by its  cover.
You never know what one person struggles may be.
And as the person i was isnt the person.i am todayandi try hard to be a better person to.ppl and not.judge bc i.have no clue what their daily struggles or what things they are going theou.
I have first my son to thank for makong me a better person.
Followed by my faith, Buddhism.

Thanks to anyone who had read all the way throu it.

I wrote this on a phone so hopefuly no weird autocorrects.

And im up bc my lil man has a belly ache. But we are laying on.the couch watching disney movies. Hes dozen on.and off.